Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but I've been sick this week and also quite preoccupied. Seems like it's been so hard to get anything accomplished this week!! It was a week with a lot of meditative reflection, but also my mental restraint was tested quite a lot. I found out that sometimes despite our best intentions we can end up getting derailed for a spell. Because my grandpa broke his hip and went in the hospital and then the nursing home, our routines around here have changed and I ended up having to eat fast food a few times this week, which did not help my bloat at all. I was also just giving up counting calories and doing what is basically intuitive eating and so sometimes I was eating a lot of food in a short span of time and then going for long spans without eating and sometimes I was eating a little bit every few hours, which probably affected the bloat situation, too. I still also think that I'm retaining some water from muscle building. At any rate, I had a large gain this week and tbh there's no way I could've gained 5 lbs of fat in a week so I'm clearly carrying around a lot of bloat that will likely go down with some patience and continued exercise and healthy eating. Anyway here's my weigh in.
Starting Weight: 281.8
Last Weigh In: 268.2
Current Weight: 272.8
Weight Lost This Week: +4.6
Total Weight Lost: 9
I'm not really concerned about the 4.6 lbs that I went up this week. There's a million reasons why the scale could've gone up and even if I did gain weight this week, it's not that big of a deal, I'm not as concerned with the number on the scale as I am with how I feel and how fit I am. My plan moving forward is to just keep exercising and continue to work on listening to my body and eating to fuel my workouts.
My eating this week was not as healthy as it could have been, but I did go grocery shopping yesterday and buy a lot of healthy foods, so I was proud of that and I've been eating a lot of healthy snacks lately so I am proud of that as well. I cleaned and organized the refrigerator yesterday so all of my fruits/veg are in plain sight so when I feel like eating one of the first things I grab will either be a fruit or a veg. I am doing pretty well with eating intuitively, listening to my body, having a good relationship with food, not feeling guilty for food choices, and eating to fuel my body and for energy.
On Sunday I did some cleaning, on Monday I did chair exercises, on Tuesday I took a short walk while I was at the therapist's office waiting for my cousin to pick me up, Wednesday I didn't do anything, and Thursday I did some cleaning and organized the refrigerator, so it's been mostly light exercise this week as I've been sick this week. Tonight I plan on doing some lifting with Fritzy and getting back into the swing of things as I'm starting to feel better and probably doing a fair bit of cleaning today before I have to go pick him up from school this afternoon. Not pushing myself too hard, though, as I am still recovering from being sick.
My cousins led me a little bit astray this week. My cousin Delta bought me a Pepsi when she took me to my therapist's appointment so I had to drink it and my cousin Valerie kept offering me cigarettes and I finally accepted and smoked one with her. So I'm starting over with my goals and building a stronger foundation this time around.
I've been doing well with meditation. I've been reading a lot of Buddhist books and they've been helping me to develop a lot of insight. I've also been discussing the concepts with a friend of mine and that's been helping me to progress in my meditation practice and in my overall Buddhist practice.
I will write more hopefully tomorrow as I start to feel better. Just wanted to get a little update in here since it's been a while since I've posted. Hope everyone had a great week and is reaching all their goals. Keep Sparking!!