Wild, Crazy, LOVE
Friday, January 18, 2019
Something is different. I have been having such a strange, crazy time in the past few weeks. I have been up and down and up and down again. I have really been doing a lot of thinking. One day, I will be all in. I will eat right and feel good. A day or two later, I crash. Why? I have no idea. This is why I have been thinking so much. I know what I should do. I know what I need to do. I just have to do it. If I could only convince myself to stick to it.
Something happened to me today. Have you ever been in situation in which you really LOVED yourself? I mean you stop for a moment and think "Yeah, this is me!" That happened to me today. I was at a convenience store and they had music playing. This song "Dynamite" by Taio Cruz came on the speakers. It is a current song. As old as I am, I shouldn't care, but I started dancing around as I headed towards the cashier. The store manager said "Yeah dancin girl?" I smiled and made my purchase. I danced all the way out of the store. The song was playing outside where people were sitting at tables. I continued to dance. A couple of high school kids smiled at me and yelled "Hand up" which is part of the lyrics of the song. I stopped and asked them who sings this song. The young man said "Hold on a minute...." and he said "Siri, who plays this song" as he held his phone up to the speaker. Of course, Siri responded while I kept dancing. I thanked the kids and as I danced to my car, a police officer standing there said "You look like you are having too much fun!" I laughed and said "I am retired. I waited a very long time to have this much fun!"
I jumped in my car and sat for a minute. I had the biggest smile on my face. I thought "THIS is the REAL me!" This is my authentic self. I like her so much. In fact, I have "wild, crazy, love" for her. I want to remember today. This is who I want to be every day.