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Saturday, February 09, 2019

I do not like mirrors. I avoid them. I do have a couple of full length mirrors in my house. I just hide my eyes and don't look as I pass by them. I don't want to look. In fact mirrors are so adversarial to my life and being, I would love if I didn't have to look at one even to wash my face.

Today, I did something different. I was brushing my straggly hair and wanted to see it from the back. It is thin, but very long. I just like long hair. I walked into my hallway, held up a mirror to see the reflection behind me. I didn't react at first. Seconds later, I was so horrified. I have been "chubby" all my life. NOW. I am fat. I am really fat. I am very fat. I am fat fat! The weird thing is I have known this for quite a while. I can tell I am far too heavy because I can't do what I have done in the past with ease. I breath too hard. I have aches. I feel far too heavy. Not looking in any mirrors helped be to ignore and forget the reality.

Today, I got a good look. I can't even believe it. I look like SpongeBob Square pants! I am a chunky, hunky torso trying to balance on short little legs. Maybe this revelation will get me to the point of understanding: Enough is Enough! I have my heart and spirit in the right place. I just need to get my actions to align.
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    Your body will believe what your mind tells it. If you convince your body that it is old and point out all that is negative, that's how it will be. Positive thoughts will eventually produce positive results. emoticon
    902 days ago
    POLSKARENIA, I think you are right. It was time to face the truth. I can't get the image out of my head. I realize I just have to stop fooling around and GET REAL. :-)
    903 days ago
    The mirrors will help you as you progress on your journey. Use them wisely...
    903 days ago
    UNIQUEBMOM, Thanks for the love and happy mirror wishes. However, I am not beautiful in any way. I know this is the right thing to say. It is very politically correct to say things like this, but I am not beautiful or even pretty by any stretch of the imagination. I am an old lady who is just trying to get some kind of peace of mind in her life. Thanks so much for the kind words. When you get to be my age, you might understand better. LOL LOL
    903 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/9/2019 4:35:10 PM
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    Please know you are beautiful. We all are! I think it's so important to celebrate ourselves in as many ways as we can where we are today and what choices we are taking to celebrate our best self. Sending you love and happy mirror wishes soon! M
    903 days ago
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