Yikes, time flies! Getting back on the wagon
Friday, March 05, 2021
As it happens sometimes, I fall off the wagon. I was doing pretty well with intermittent fasting and tracking my carbs. It's really easy to get short-sighted during this process and when I wasn't seeing the progress I wanted, I just lapsed back into poor eating habits, not tracking, etc. Unsurprisingly, the few pounds I lost came right back.
However, there is very good news--I just got the Moderna vaccine shot yesterday and, even though I know I need to wait for the second shot to have time to fully inoculate me before I really get the benefits, there is a huge psychological weight off my shoulders. I was barely going outside--literally, I would go a week or even longer without leaving my home. I know that's not healthy and much of this anxiety not tied to reality but, is it? It has been impossible to do a good risk assessment during this time and I'm so high-risk anyway that even going outside didn't feel worth it if it meant I'd eventually end up in the hospital.
I know that I'm not that much better off right now than I was two days ago. The vaccine needs time to teach my body how to respond. But the fact that this is finally happening means that I can be outside again without worrying that someone's breath might kill me. I mean, that's honestly how the last year has felt, like there's a threat around every corner. I haven't been inside of a grocery store (except to get the shot) since October, right before that third, huge surge. We were watching infection numbers hit shocking, horrible highs. I just couldn't get myself outside that much after that.
Anyway, with the first shot in my arm, working its magic, I feel like I can start putting some pieces of my life and my health back together. Walking outside. Getting sunlight and fresh air. Letting my in-laws take the baby while my husband and I go for a quick drive or picnic (though we could always bring the baby for that). I wish everyone a quick path to their vaccination. We have been through so, so much as a country and I can't wait until we can resume so many of the normal things we've been missing and that used to bring us joy.