Saturday, September 22, 2007
This picture was made early in this journey. I weighed about 225. I thought I looked good but the truth is I looked like the goodyear blimp in color. I am not angry about it. It is about perception.
I was finally headed in the right direction on this particular segment of the journey. I was making progress. Now I am stalled again and I feel frustrated.
Like some of the women that I have met here, I don't like the hanging skin on my body especially around my gut. I keep telling myself that if I loose all the weight and hang on a year, I can have surgery. Yet that does not sound like what I want either. NOT one thing seems to be quite right.
From past experience I know that for me personally, I have to find what is bugging me. Why I seem to be intent on self sabotage? I then have to deal with it. I can't change what I refuse to see. I will in some form post those questions and answers here. I may not be as candid as some would like but I will share what is comfortable for me to share.
The journey continues.