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life in the AFTER

Monday, October 22, 2007

so here i am, finally, at my goal (and beyond) and loving every minute of it! fitting into jeans i haven't worn in years, not craving all my old trigger foods, even enjoying the healthier versions of the meals i make. BUT i've noticed something's missing - i still don't have my sexy back and by that i mean, my confidence. i look at the scale everyday and i see the number staring back at me but i still feel like the fat girl, like i'm gonna wake up and the person reflecting back is still 150lbs. i also find that i'm carrying myself like the fat girl of old, head pointing straight down towards the floor, bad posture, tugging at my shirt. I WANT MY SEXY BACK, DAMN IT!! i want to carry myself with pride and confidence. i never seemed to have a problem with it in the past when i was thin but now i'm having such a hard time and i can't understand why. have i been fat for too long? how long will this feeling last? and how do i snap myself out of it? losing the weight was hard but at least there were tangible things i could do to get to my goal. i'm not exactly sure what i'm supposed to do to feel hot again. it's a little frustrating, to say the least, because i expected it to be instant; as if, once that magic number appeared i would just feel that certain something again.

can anyone relate? and if so, any advice? mom says i should take tons of pictures, so i'll start there, but am open to more suggestions. i've worked so hard to get here and don't want to waste another minute in the "fat mode" frame of mind...
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  • MAMAJEN4
    lol it's funny because we were just talking about this very thing at our weightwatchers meeting yesterday!!! our leader was saying that even though she's reached her goal, her mind still hasn't caught up yet and apparently it takes awhile to catch up with what you've done for your body!!! don't dispair it'll happen!!! emoticon
    4754 days ago
  • IMMISCEO
    I can relate. I'm smaller now than I was in high school. Also in a new (ish) loving relationship, but sex y is not quite back (I have my momoents though!) THink I may take some of Vivian's advice too!
    4942 days ago
  • BEMORESTUBBORN
    Actually, this sounds like a great question to post either on the boards or in one or more of your teams. I bet you'd get a lot of responses because we all go through this...
    4944 days ago
  • BEMORESTUBBORN
    The "fat frame of mind" is something we all struggle with after losing weight. Pick out your favorite fat picture and carry it around. When you feel that way, look at it - it will give you an attitude adjustment. Take lots of new pictures of your gorgeous new self and REALLY look at them - you have come very far from where you were. You may not see it, but you ARE carrying yourself a lot better than before and smiling a lot more and looking HOT and FABULOUS! Just gotta start believing it now, too!
    4954 days ago
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