A little history ...
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
BigGirl208 - the name says it all. I've had a fairly steady rise to the top ... when I hit 218 back in 2003, I decided to watch it - I really no longer felt good about many things in my life.
Taking control was easy - I lost about 20 pounds within 2 months simply by watching what went into my mouth. Yes, I love to eat, so I just ate smaller portions of everything I loved.
Then I decided to run a marathon ... did that, with ZERO training or preparation! Took almost 9 hours to finish - right, that wasn't RUNNING, it was jog/trot/walk/drag to the finish line. :) The following year, I decided to jog another marathon, this time with training! Trained for 4 months and then did the San Francisco marathon - took just over 7 and a half hours. But while training, I'd actually managed to GAIN weight - go figure. I guess I knew I was going to be jogging for significant periods of time 6 days a week, so I didn't want to risk my body going into starvation mode - went to the other extreme.
Then I got divorced in spring 2006, and decided to move to New York. Shoved all my belongings into a storage unit and landed in New York with just one small suitcase. For the next 3 months, I totally changed my life ... not working, walking 8 miles a day enjoying the sights, eating only when I was really hungry - I estimate I got down to about 180 pounds or even less - I only know all my clothes fitted really well, and I'd moved into Medium/Large sizes, rather than the XLs I'd been used to.
Then, for reasons I won't get into, I headed home to Toronto. Found myself a job late in 2006, and stayed at it all of 2007. It was a job I enjoyed, but it was highly stressful. PLUS, I was plunging headlong into investigating a variety of business opportunities - I long ago figured out that relying on a day-job income for the rest of my life wouldn't be too smart.
While at that job, I also ended up averaging 4 hours of sleep. And returning to my old eating habits: eating out way too often, eating when I wasn't hungry, eating beyond the I'm-satisfied stage, drinking diet colas and eating candy and chips out of the vending machines every time I felt frustrated - which was way more often than I realised. I started 2007 at about 191 - ended it at about 210!!!
Very frustrating, so I'm dedicating this year to getting my weight down to my pre-marriage weight - back to 157 at the minimum, and ideally back to 127, which was what I weighed when I first came to Canada! I've been exercising consistently since my job laid me off - 4 to 6 days a week, and I've recently started interval training. However, I still love to eat, so I've not been watching the calories, and the weight has simply been bouncing between 208 and 200.
I plan to be way more alert for the rest of January, and for life from here on. I'll still be exercising, but will not automatically just keep eating until my stomach protests! :)
I'm looking forward to sharing the weight loss journey with all of you, and exploring new ideas and hints to keeping my own goals firmly in my sights and hoping to avoid getting sidetracked into "just one little indulgence" every time I lose a few pounds!