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Taking back control of my eating!!
Friday, March 10, 2017      5 comments

Since I got home from the hospital I've let myself go. I stopped the VLCD medically supervised diet, as it was causing me to lose hair and let's face it, I don't have much hair to lose! But I didn't start on my normal way of eating, I let myself... Read more
Dog and Stuff
Thursday, March 09, 2017      3 comments

I wrote a big long blog yesterday on why I want a service dog and i forgot to hit the 'post' button... yeah, so when I got up this morning and clicked it, it erased all I had written. Service dogs are trained to do so many things that will be h... Read more
Emotional Eating/Hope saved my Life
Monday, March 06, 2017      3 comments

Emotional eating has struck again. In the hospital I had no choice of when I ate, we got three meals and a snack before bedtime meds so we would have something on our stomachs. Now though... Yesterday I can't even tell you what all I ate. Not go... Read more
Walking Nyquil Commercial/PTSD Service Dog
Sunday, March 05, 2017      4 comments

This is what my husband told me I was this morning: I'm a walking Nyquil Commercial! After spending most of the night up because of coughing that was worse when I laid down even propped up, I insisted on going to church this morning. We dropped ... Read more
Hope and Being Impatient
Saturday, March 04, 2017      8 comments

So... I didn't get to see the psychiatrist yesterday. emoticon About the time I was getting ready to leave DH ca... Read more
Getting Back In The Swing of Things
Friday, March 03, 2017      5 comments

You would think that I'd be able to get back into the swing of things right away, it was only 8 days in the hospital, right? I know that is a longer stay that I usually spend (3-4 days), but it wasn't like it was that long. But I think getting s... Read more
First Full Day Home... Big News
Thursday, March 02, 2017      8 comments

I feel exhausted, but happy that I'm home from the hospital. We went grocery shopping, which made me a little anxious, but was my usual grocery store, so not as much as it would have going somewhere else. I got a lot of veggies, fruits and healt... Read more
Back from an 8 day hospital stay
Wednesday, March 01, 2017      10 comments

I'm so sorry that i have not gotten back to your emails and comments, I've just gotten back from being in the hospital for 8 days due to my PTSD, anxiety and other such things. I'm doing okay now, I'm in a better frame of mind although I'm still... Read more
If you don't hear from me for a while...
Monday, February 20, 2017      10 comments

I thought I had turned my dark thoughts to bright ones, but they still plague me. I tried to turn my "I quit" around. And I did, for a moment. But then the moment passed and life is looking bleak again. I did not need to be alone today, so... Read more
Turning my "I Quit" Into "I Commit"
Monday, February 20, 2017      9 comments

For the 3rd day in a row I was up at 0300 with a panic attack. I was too wired from the panic attack to go back to sleep, but too exhausted to not go back to bed. What a conundrum. And I thought to myself, "I quit." This is too hard. All the men... Read more
Day 141/ Asking for Help is Hard/ Service Dog
Saturday, February 18, 2017      7 comments

Today i restart the VLCD. I was going to Monday but then this week happened. This time I'm not going to let my anxiety and such get in the way because I have a goal: My future service dog. I started a GoFundMe Account at http://w... Read more
Day 140/ Oops I hit the send button!
Friday, February 17, 2017      5 comments

I wrote two blogs on my site CrouchingFlea yesterday. One was part of my testimony, how I was saved and how the church literally saved me when I was younger. The other, much longer blog is on what is going on right now with me. I have felt led ... Read more
Day 139/ Cancel Everything/PTSD Service Dog?
Thursday, February 16, 2017      7 comments

I had to cancel everything yesterday. My anxiety was so bad, there was no way I could have driven, and DH was working so could not drive me. No way I could have taught crochet class. When I get extreme anxiety like this I stutter and can't hold ... Read more
Day 138/Anxiety/Food Idol
Wednesday, February 15, 2017      9 comments

emoticon Just another manic... Wednesday Oh-ohooooh! ... Read more
Day 137/Anxiety with a capital A
Tuesday, February 14, 2017      8 comments

I wrote my new week stuff out yesterday hoping it would help me to really feel it and be motivated to do it. And I do, I want to make this stuff work, but, to quote Shinedown; "There's a monkey on my back and he don't know how to act, got me cli... Read more

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